The most characteristic thing about modern life isn’t its pretentiousness, cruelty and insecurity, but simply its barrenness, its dinginess, its listlessness and most of all, it’s monotony. There is a need to fight this deliberate drowning of our own consciousness where we’re moving to a dull beat, working the same tasks over and over again. Each of us has desire to cut ourselves from the modern day rat race. Perhaps it isn’t orthodoxy that is holding us back from stepping into the wilderness of our thoughts but simply our shackled minds and our inability to acknowledge our intelligence.
With everyone of us, there is a special insight clinging to the edge of our subconscious, something strongly felt but not reducible to definite solidity, like an object seen out of the corner of eye.
This feeling, this memory, once recognised and assimilated into ourselves is what sets us free. By degrees, you come to spend less time procrastinating, this urge to stay quiet and feel the strength gathering around your body, this memory taking strong possession of your mind is your cue to change your life from its futility and dullness towards a wholesome belief that cancels all absurdity.
Trapped in sameness, our ordinary routine has become the necessary byproduct of staying alive.
Live out of the ordinary. Notice the sunrises and the sunsets, how, for a moment the earth turns molten gold in glory of the dying sun. Notice how grass yellows after the death of every summer. Inhale deeply and wriggle your toes in a freshly mown lawn. Think in poetry on long drives. Notice the earth split in a thousand colours. Observe like a child, read more, write scorchingly directly about your lives, your bodies, your thoughts: about what your life looked like and felt like and sounded like from a clear-eyed, unsentimental perspective. Refuse to be a slave of habit. Not patience, but a burning fire in your bosom will lead you towards extraordinary. Avoid hiding from death, instead move towards it reminding yourself that being alive requires an effort far greater than simply breathing. In your exceedingly mundane existence, I plead you, live out of ordinary.